So yeah... shit happened... ALOT of shit... i'm not going to like this, cause today is Friday the 13... AND my moms B-day, AND the day i get to fucking freeze my ass off up in fucking Wisconsin. Do i wanna go? NO, i don't... am I, sadly yes. Kitty and i just had out last 'monthly' aniversary reciently, so come March 10, it will be 2 YEARS! i just hope we make it that far... we havn't seen each other in a while for some 'personal' time, and she seem to be very irritable or upset or angry or, well ALOT of these things, and it's starting to scare me. I ended up talking to her Best Friend Rin last night, trying to find out why i can't get her to become less "independent". She shuts me away when i want to help her cause she knows i want too, but refuses to take it. it makes me think that... well... i don't want to go one with this... i don't want to lose my one and only Kelli O'Malley for wanting to Help her... its not fair...
... why cant you let me love you back?
