Holy fuck, my hand hurts...

Yeah, well, lets catch up first. So i can't remember alot of what happened between now and my last post, so bear with me... Over the weekend was both one of the worst and best times of my life. ON Saturday i was all excited about going to a bon-fire with all of my friends, but my damned cusin had a fucking graduation party that day, so guess where i was let to go. Yup, middle of fucking nowhere party... i knew NOBODY. it sucked soo badly. So while i was having the worst time ever, Kitty, Fat-ass. Rin, zach and a few other people were having a blast blaying rockband and beating the crap out of each other with light-sabers... I was so upset that i acually went down to the damned HIGHWAY and cried. I was so alone, and when tubby (mentioned above) sent me a text saying something along the lines of "this is a fucking blast, ha ha you can't be here" i wanted to fucking shout. It irritated me so damn much.

Sunday held such a better turnout. Kitty and i were togeather nearly the whole day (i had to freaking work.) We were in this kind of arguement, but not. We felt like neither person wanted the other, but somehow we managed to turn everything around. We fueled the 'dying flame' and brought it to a nice roar. I feel quite happy to know that i didn't almost lose the one person i couldn't forget.

Now for monday... sucked... I got up at 8 this morning to go help Kitty's dad pour concrete by their neighbors. It was alright, but i spilled my wheelbarrow once, all over a nice rock landscape decoration thing... it sucked. But then i got to see kitty, and was so excited! We then had some arbys for breakfast (well, to me... it was our first meal) andhung out before she had to get ready for her Sr. pictures. My shower today wasn't as fun. I had gotten a few blisters on my hands from the wheelbarrow, and stupid me ended up breaking one, and tearing another right of. But i didn't know it untill i went to get the shampoo... do you see the brilliance here? It hurt so fucking badly i wanted to cry. My hands have NEVER hurt that much, not even when i screwed up my finger by smashing it with a jagged bike handle-bar... So that leaves me with right now. Im am blogging all about my morning and weekend, but you all know this, so i'll Talk to you all later. I Love you Kitty, and ill talk to the rest of my audience later...

~TeddyBear

I don't know what to call this post!!! YAY!!!... i think...

Today was the best damn day ever!!! well, mostly. My morning kinda sucked, but i dealt with my parents, and i got to hang out with Kitty all day!!! With our luck, as soon as we got to my house, kitty's dad asked us to go help change her grandma's TV, cause her old one was broken or something. So we did that, then we grabbed some 'lunch' at jewel, but we ended up going to the mall and an antique store near it. It was alot of fun, then Me and Kitty went to the Jamba Juice right there (it was my first time inside of one, and it was really good) and we went home to find we had to get pizza, so off we were again, but KITTY DROVE. It was weird not being behind the wheel, but still fun at the same time. We then sat and watched TV for a bit, but then i had to go home. I say today was pretty damn awesome, compared to most of my days... AND i got to cheer Kitty up from her slump earlier... It was quite good!. Well, i have no more to say. I love you kitty, and i will talk to you, Rin, and the rest of my audience later!
~TeddyBear.

P.S. Does Rin even read my posts, or just Kitty's?

if you were to ask me how i was feeling, i don't know what i could tell you.

Picture Quote "Please Let Me love you"

so yeah, its been a bit since i last posted, but o well, i have more beautiful stuff to deal with. (i'll try to write more tho). well, alot has happened in the last week. I dont even know where the hell to start. All i know is that Wednesday was the best day of my life so far. Nobody but Me, Rin, Kitty, and maybe 4 other people know, but it was exciting. That day i got to take kitty out for a not-so-wonderful dinner (to McDonalds), but i was still super excited. I'm sorry Rin, but i am SOO happy that i found somebody like Kitty. I couldn't have anybody else. Today sucked fucking donkey balls tho... First, Kitty and i couldn't see each other, which i knew would get Kitty upset, weather she knew it or not. So durring the day i got to suffer with fat-ass and zach. Afterwards tho, i managed to kick them out by 4, even tho i had to work at 6. Work was boring as hell, so go figure there... i gets boring doing the same damn shit over and over again... But then i got to talk to kitty, which makes my title so revelant... i think thats how its spelled... whatever... So Kitty and I were talking, but she didn't seem to want to talk on the phone, and so i hung up and we talked online, and to make a long and personal story short and reveil nothing, her sister's BIG ASS mouth spit forth OUR secrete, and soon Kitty's friend Manda and Alora were making fun of her, and she was really upset, and after talking for over an hour, im pretty sure i made things a little, if not alot, better... BUt at the end of the conversation, we were both emotionally bounced, but im sure what i did helped, at least i hope it Did. I Love you Kitty, and I hope our 'date'tommrow (friday) goes well. I'll TTYL!

~Teddy Bear

P.S. Don't think i've forgotten my invisable audience or you Rin. TTYL as well, if you care...